Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Me and my Catatonic State

Today started off like any other day. With me not wanting to get out of bed. But we got up and ready in time to make the bus. I felt perfectly fine. In photography today I spent all of my lab day developing film that I had taken of my father in a precarious lighting situation over the weekend. As I hung them up to dry the images looked nothing like what I had expected them to and my mood took a nose dive. While they were drying I went out with Mark and I could not shake my bad mood. It was a mixture between pissed off, sulkiness, and being so tired that I could barely hold my head up. After I dropped Mark of at work I did not want to be back in the dark room yet so I went home to take a short nap. Before I laid down I remembered that I had forgotten to take my medication this morning. And then it all clicked, I knew there was a reason this mood I was in felt so normal. I spent the entirety of last winter in this mood.

I took my Happy Advil as I like to call it and took a two hour nap and woke up feeling perfectly/wonderfully content and light. Light in the sense that I didn't feel like I was at the bottom of a deep body of water watching the world go on with out me through the diffused surface.

Yes. I am one of those many people who need a medicine everyday to keep them normal. I am O.K. with that. Mark is definitely O.K. with that because this means he no longer has to put up with my constant pissed off state, where, I yell at him and then burst in to tears because I yelled at him. So. Tom Cruse you can suck it. I love your movies. I just think you are a little fucking crazy. And thats cool. Whatever makes you happy.

1 comment:

  1. Hahahahaha! I love this post! Amen to your sentiments on Tom Cruise! I am in the same boat as you. My brain just doesn't seem satisfied with any of my endeavors unless I "supplement" it. Without it, I find myself questioning my abilities...and who needs that! Keep it up, and for one, I think your photos are cool! Love the retro quality.

    Also thanks for the sweet comments on my blog! :)