Today started off like any other day. With me not wanting to get out of bed. But we got up and ready in time to make the bus. I felt perfectly fine. In photography today I spent all of my lab day developing film that I had taken of my father in a precarious lighting situation over the weekend. As I hung them up to dry the images looked nothing like what I had expected them to and my mood took a nose dive. While they were drying I went out with Mark and I could not shake my bad mood. It was a mixture between pissed off, sulkiness, and being so tired that I could barely hold my head up. After I dropped Mark of at work I did not want to be back in the dark room yet so I went home to take a short nap. Before I laid down I remembered that I had forgotten to take my medication this morning. And then it all clicked, I knew there was a reason this mood I was in felt so normal. I spent the entirety of last winter in this mood.
I took my Happy Advil as I like to call it and took a two hour nap and woke up feeling perfectly/wonderfully content and light. Light in the sense that I didn't feel like I was at the bottom of a deep body of water watching the world go on with out me through the diffused surface.
Yes. I am one of those many people who need a medicine everyday to keep them normal. I am O.K. with that. Mark is definitely O.K. with that because this means he no longer has to put up with my constant pissed off state, where, I yell at him and then burst in to tears because I yelled at him. So. Tom Cruse you can suck it. I love your movies. I just think you are a little fucking crazy. And thats cool. Whatever makes you happy.
Hahahahaha! I love this post! Amen to your sentiments on Tom Cruise! I am in the same boat as you. My brain just doesn't seem satisfied with any of my endeavors unless I "supplement" it. Without it, I find myself questioning my abilities...and who needs that! Keep it up, and for one, I think your photos are cool! Love the retro quality.
ReplyDeleteAlso thanks for the sweet comments on my blog! :)